All in the Mind
It's all in the mind, there's nothing wrong
You will find that you have to be strong
It's all in the mind, it's where it ends and begins
If you leave it behind, then you can still win
Fragile like china, breakable
Shining like fire, unmistakable
Make me a liar, I believe in you
Show me desire, you belong, it's true
Awakening
Always in flux, never the same
The whole world remade, again and again
So much potential, waiting for me
The choice in my hands to decide what will be
Fragments, patterns, half-dreams
Potential, half-light, awakening
Imagine, connection, redemption
Beginning, reshaping, remaking
Brightness behind my eyes, soothing skin
A blessing made without a sound, a whisper within
Shadows fade and turn to dust, it comforts me
Shapes dissolve to integrate, formless and free
Circles
Why can't I find a new beginning?
Always repeat the life I'm living
Everything's on hold
Everything's on hold
Going round in circles
Waiting for the start of something new
I just want something new
I just want something new
In circles... again and again...
Cracked
Cracked into pieces, this exquisite breakdown
Has shattered my sense of reality
A struggle to surface, but your sanity
Is worth more to me than my own, not clouded by fear and anxiety
My vision is tainted, but what it means to me
Is entirely different, not touched by an echo of something
That nobody notices, nobody knows
Darklight
From darkness into darklight, for the first time burning bright
Invocation, awakening, sense of wonder taken flight
I no longer feel afraid to lose control over my life
Shadowless, created, to make another choice
Lots of bouncing ensues...
Everything I've ever wanted is finally within my reach
You no longer have any power over me
I've set myself free, shadowless
From darkness into darklight, shadowless
Dreams in Vain
Lost in the silence of my world
Silver light shines brighter than gold
In my dream, there is no fear
Of the changing time, time of year
I dream my dreams in vain
I see shadows all the same
I try to keep myself sane
I dream my dreams in vain
Between the space, inside the shadows
In colder night is safer dreams
Escape from memories untold
Bound to you, by ties untold
For Her
Take her youth, it's only the beginning
All her life, all she's known are endings
Stolen peace - changed for all time
Forever altered, broken child
I cannot cry, your ocean of tears for you
Take my hand, you know that I love you
You were a child, he ripped from you your innocence
Shame written in blood, written by his ignorance
Your inheritance, a river sixteen years deep
You saved my life, you kept me safe from him
Time to grieve, you never had the chance to
Time to mourn - for what he took from you
How can she sleep with burning in her mind?
She can no longer see to write, the page obscured by pain
In her mind she recreates the scenes of tears
Cast in fire, wasted bitter years
Gentle
There's a place inside of me
It keeps a secret you'll never see
You think you know me, perhaps you do
Sometimes you hurt me, you know it's true
Be gentle with me, my friend
I'm hurt so easily, my friend
Remember my words, my friend
Be gentle with me
I'm only a child inside
And like we all do, I hide
You'll have to seek me if you want
You'll have to coax me, cos I've been burnt
There is something you should know
But if you're harsh to me, I'll never show
My hidden secrets lost to you
I'll keep myself locked out of view
Illumination
I divide my life into
The one without and with you
I'm so grateful for the depth of your compassion for me
My history of grief defined
The shape of where I could go to
Your kindness and your patience
Dissolved the boundary
You said, take my hand
I will walk with you
I will hold you
I will hear you
You are the place in me which is
Illuminated
Thank you for the incredible gift of your love
I treasure each fragile moment that you spend with me
As a weapon again the darkness
You have lifted me above
You healed the dark places
Which I could not even see
Every day with you in my life is special to me
And now you have shown me
And now I'm not afraid to walk alone
My world will never again be a frightening place for me
Your face is so dear to me, my love
(c)2001 Lucy PointycatIntense
And as I walk alone into this valley of tears
I cannot lose my self-control, I won't listen to my fears
On my own, your shadow lingers by my side
Into the darkness - and into the light
I can't sleep, I can't breathe
I can't argue - the fear the fear...
Got a funny feeling that I will pull through
Even though everything revolves around you
Everything is due to change, everything is due to be deranged
(c)1999 Lucy Pointycat and 1998 Mat HookThe Invited
I read between the lines, I can see through you
Your reputation's in your eyes, but I still want you
Your motivation's hard to find, yet I adore you
I know you're gonna hurt me, you're playing me for a fool
Drifting through oceans, I'm floating inside of you
Floating inside of you, but you're flying away from me
You said you'll stay with me, I can see through you
The invitation's in your hand, you're gonna leave soon
Your motivation's clear because I know who's invited
I'm floating inside of you, but you're flying away from me
You don't wanna miss it, you're not gonna stay here
You don't wanna miss it because he might be there
You don't wanna miss it, you're not gonna stay here
You don't wanna miss it because she might be there
Invocation
Call my name
In the light
Don't be afraid
Call my name
I am here where I've always been
You will find me when you stop looking
Call my name
Call my name
In the light
Call my name
In the night
Don't be afraid
Call my name
I am here
Call my name
Isolation
And she's walking alone in the silence
With pictures she can't want in her head
As she counts all the tears she's cried over you
And slept alone, her intentions unsaid
So hard not to feel so strange
In all the ways she's tried to change
But all the time, she's on her own
Can't help to, feeling so alone
This room is filled with people that she knows
And she's falling while her eyes watch them move
And the rhythm of her pain grows faster now
She forgets what she's trying to prove
And the cold wraps its arms around her now
She shivers the way she did with you
And all this illusion fades to nothing now
This isolation's all that's true
Is This Real?
Is this real? This can't be
I don't believe in what I see
Please wake up, take me home
I don't want to be here alone
You don't know who I am
I remember when this began
Is this true? It's not you
I don't know what to do
You cried out, broken dream
On the floor, repeated scene
Arms thrown wide, limbs distorted
Hurt my eyes, face contorted
Dusty face, lips are blue
Shadow self, it's not true
Come home, come to me
When you're there, what do you see?
Open wide windows, breathe deep
Heat and smoke, too little sleep
Twilight destination, between within
Petals and thorns, this is living
Mirrors
Lie there watching you sleep, the pain becomes numb
In spite of me I'm laid bare, I'm all undone
Future hurt echoes now, I dream of losing you
You pull me closer, I'm so lost in you
Still so uneasy in my mind
Some kind of peace so hard to find
Still dream of cuts inside my head
And I sleep while the sheets turn red
There's a warmth in your eyes, I can't feel cold
Hold your arms out, you see me dissolve
You burn me like ice, you're too good for me
I wonder what you see, when you see me
Naked
You see me, see through me
You know me inside-out
Can't hide from, you're holding on
You know where I live and breathe
I'm naked... I'm naked to you
You read me, translucent
Transparent, I'm happy
To be seen at last like clear glass
I'm not ashamed, my nakedness is plain
Never Had a Face
I wish I never had a face, a canvas artificial paint
So tainted by the false beliefs, that others hold of me
I wish I could eliminate the minutiae of social grace
Embittered by the smile of etiquette ignored by me
A paradox in corridors, I wipe the dark, I slash the floor
Escape for me, for me, for me
A paradox in corridors...
I wish I never had a face, with minds and hearts I've laid to waste
Excrutiating shame in who I am and tried to be
I wish I never left a trace of mismatched body, soul and face
A misspent word is overheard, spreading poison, wildfire burns
Not Listening
Why aren't you listening to me?
Why don't you go away?
Why aren't you crumbling somewhere?
Why don't you go away?
Why aren't you dead and buried?
Why don't you go away?
Why aren't you lost and worried?
Why don't you go away?
I wanted to call and never to hear your name
I wanted to fight and never be the same again
I wanted to listen and not hear you reply
I wanted to hurt you and never even see you cry
The Otherside
And as she lies there, dreaming of your bed
A thousand images of you still in her head
And with each new cut, she feels the pain grow less
And as she tells herself, it's just another test
Can she get through to the other side?
Even though she feels herself divide
And all that she has left is memory - memory
But she can be what she wants to be - wants to be
And can she get through to the other side of this?
Though he took all she had and then he made it his
No matter what she does, inside it feels the same
But she knows she's learnt to play a different game
And though it hurts her, she can feel the change inside
She's slowly learning that she's got nothing to hide
For every chance she's lost, she's tired of blaming you
Time to start a new life, time to start anew
Sciagraphy
Don't, don't, don't, let me fall...
Who will catch me when I fall?
It's so hard, to know that you hear my call
Bound in shadows as I am
I will fight for, as long as I can
And though I struggle to retain, this fragile sense of hope
A sciagraphic understanding, shows I'm still noctivagent
I savour the sweetness of this cessation of pain
But I'm still fearful of drowning in shadows again
Do you think that this peace of mind
Comes easily to me?
It's so hard, so hard, to give up the strength
From tragedy
In these moments of transition
I try to abide by my decision
I fight for freedom from depair
To live my life, without nightmares
Surplus
Avoid the cliches of the time
Towing the standard lover's line
We drag around a ball and chain
Morals of old victoria, victoria
But petticoats and corridors
Chastity behind closed doors
It's all confused in lover's brains
It's surplus, all surplus
Guilt and fear are no loss to me
Others find their place
Sex and lies inside and outside
Life is always nearly false
Rather keep my integrity
Does it have to be
Confused in lover's brains?
It's surplus
Treading Water
I don't know what anybody wants from me
I can't be different from the person that you see
This is who I am, I've made it by myself
And on reflection, don't want to be anybody else
Want to stay by the sea
Treading water constantly
In this place is where I want to be
Treading water constantly
Vice Girl
Purity of intention
Define yourself by your abstention
Black on black
Skin on skin
Dance with me
I'll let you in
Fingernails upon your skin
A subtle glance, a taunting dance
Precious as a black pearl
Dirty little vice-girl
Come here, come to me
Come on, come with me
Virgin statue in the corner
Carved in marble, draped in lace
You can't help but adore her
Hair a veil across her face
Trace of perfume lingering
As she walks onto the dance-floor
Deliberately provoking
Your desire to see more
Visions Images and Dreams
The intricacy of you deceived me
Inside your splintered self I was lost
I opened my heart to you, you didn't believe me
I live for your breath and I die for your touch
I wanted your absolution, you could have liberated me
Instead you chose to misjudge me, I'm more than what you see
Visions, images and dreams
My vision of you is complete
Your image of me is untrue
I dream of you and I as two
Shifting ground, out of balance
I don't understand the rules
Blissful torture is your voice, my hopes
Bled into the air between us
Forgive me now but your silence, is this what you choose?
Expectations, expectations, shattered with my trust
Waves
I'm unlocking boxes whose contents even I was unaware of until today
Love in a mist, this is the last game I play, if you can't hear what I say
You're blind to my dreams, but I'm not in the mood for reality
Before I yield to you I'll speak out, before resorting to fantasy
I can't look, but to see you
I can't touch without feeling you
I can't listen without hearing you
You're everywhere aren't you?